Has there been a big stirring in your heart to do something worthwhile, to make your mark on the world, to go to new heights and depths with God?
Maybe you’re wondering, “how does one even make the decision to leave home and do a Discipleship Training School?” Well, if you are as indecisive as I am, you might find committing to a DTS to be a very daunting task. Making decisions- BIG decisions- isn’t easy. I have often found myself stressed out and anxious to the point where I never even decide. However,
I want to encourage you that there is hope and a way to go about making BIG decisions.
When I was preparing for the next stage of my life after graduating from college, the opportunity to do a DTS came up. I had heard of YWAM before and knew of a few people who had done a DTS or had been on staff with YWAM, but I didn’t feel like I knew enough about it to seriously pursue that option.
I enquired about the Music & Arts DTS at YWAM Newcastle and within days someone contacted me. I remember exactly where I was when I received that first phone call. It was such an encouraging and genuine conversation that it prompted me to apply for DTS. Even though I applied right away, I was still unsure about which direction the Lord was leading me. I was just about to start my last year of college, but I wasn’t ready to make a commitment to something almost a year away. What if some other opportunity came up? What if I got an amazing job offer after graduation?
Well, within a week of applying, I got accepted. I took the next 2-3 weeks to pray and I hoped to gain God’s peace and clarity about what decision to make. During the first week, I tried finding any alternative I could that was a better option than DTS. I was filled with doubt, and angry with God because I felt like He wasn’t giving me peace about which choice to make.
The thing was, I wasn’t actually asking God for peace; I just expected Him to simply give it to me.
The second week, I sat down with my mentor who had been a part of YWAM for a number of years. She asked me one very simple, but meaningful question, “If you were to say no, why would you be saying no?” Stopped in my tracks, all I could reply was, “I don’t know”. What came out of her mouth next is something I still remember to this day: “Just because you say yes now doesn’t mean it’s going to be a yes in 10 months, but God is going to honour you saying yes to Him.” Simply put, I needed to stop over-complicating the decision-making process. The Lord was calling me to be brave and courageous and to trust Him with my future, even if I didn’t know exactly what that was going to look like. I said yes to God that day and yes to God 10 months later as I jumped on a plane to Australia for the wild and amazing adventure that is DTS.
I have continued to say yes to God in the small decisions as well as the BIG, and to be honest, the more I have taken little steps of faith, the less scary it has been to take bigger leaps of faith. I’ve learnt that trusting God isn’t meant to always be this huge, scary thing that makes you feel like you’re about to dive off a cliff and hope someone catches you.
Sometimes trusting God is a simple, calm choice that is meant to bring peace and stillness to your heart. Don’t over-complicate God.
When given an opportunity, or one too many, yes, pray about it and seek the Lord, but there comes a time when God wants you to actively make a decision. God gives us the ability to choose wisely. So, my question to those who may be back-and-forth about doing a DTS is this: what is holding you back from saying yes? Fear of the unknown, finances, doubt, not feeling good enough? What do you really have to lose?
Joshua 1:9 says “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
God is with you, and He is bigger than your fears, your finances, your past and your mistakes. Open up your heart to God and see where the adventure takes you!
YWAM Newcastle Staff